To be very honest, I don’t really know what’s going to happen on this site yet. Mainly, I want to start writing. I’ve actually wanted to for a long time, but I never quite got out of my own way long enough to make it happen. I kept allowing myself to get derailed by silly things like not having the first clue how to build a website/blog and not being able to settle on a name, but I finally decided I was ready to let go of the excuses and just start, already. So, I blundered my way through WordPress (this site will get better as I learn how it actually works, I swear) and, after much agonizing, I finally decided on the name “Always Growing”…until I discovered that buying the .com domain name would have cost me as much as a brand new Honda Civic (the most basic model, to be fair). So, I kept the “growing” part and started trying to come up with something else. I did toy around with using “growth” in the name instead, but then everything I came up with sounded tumorous, so I went back to “growing”. And I’ve always been fond of the word “moxie”. According to Merriam-Webster:
So many desirable traits in one word! I happened to mention my affinity for this word to my husband, and he suggested “Growing Moxie” as a name. I liked how it sounded, I liked its dual meaning, and I liked that buying the domain name didn’t cost more than a semester of tuition at a private college. I briefly halted all progress at this point, when my subconscious fear of putting myself out there convinced me that I couldn’t possibly start a blog without a gorgeous, artist-rendered logo. But I recognized that it was just my pesky brain trying to keep me in my comfort zone, got over the idea that everything needed to be perfect to get started, designed myself a logo online for free (artist/designer friends, please don’t judge me for my lack of design knowledge/skill), and got back to it. So, here we have it: the birth of a blog. I’m excited to share (some of) my thoughts and experiences with the world and potentially connect with at least a few regular readers over such topics as:
1. growing plants, because there’s nothing in the world like starting plants from seed,
2. starting a small business (I haven’t actually started one yet, but it’s in the plans), and
3. my own journeys in personal growth and development.
That’s how it’ll probably start, anyway. I might tackle other topics in blog form and I’d like to eventually introduce some kind of structure to how often (and about what) I post. I may try my hand at writing other kinds of things, too, because words are my jam and I’d like to see if writing might be something I could pursue outside the blogosphere. For now I’ll just say this: whatever this site ends up being, for however long it may continue, I want it to be about some kind of growth. What are we worth, as humans, if we’re not seeking to better ourselves? And I’m trying to be okay with not knowing exactly what it will be yet. I’m not always good at accepting that I don’t know how things will turn out but, with this, I’m trying to embrace it. As Tim Crouch (described on Wikipedia as “an experimental theatre maker: an actor, writer and designer”) supposedly once said, “Uncertainty is a very good thing: it’s the beginning of an investigation, and the investigation should never end.”
So, here’s to uncertainty, here’s to investigation, and here’s to Growing Moxie…
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